In February 2000, at age 67, Guy Waterman reached the grim goal he and his wife spent more than a year preparing for: he committed suicide by freezing to death in New Hampshire's White Mountains.
His death, like all suicides do, raised agonizing questions. Laura Waterman looks to love for answers in her new memoir, "Losing the Garden: The Story of a Marriage."
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