Editor's note: Laconia Daily Sun Managing Editor Roger Carroll experienced firsthand how the state's mental health system works, and doesn’t work, when he went through a personal crisis and sought help. He writes about his experiences in three parts to shed light on that system and help remove the stigma surrounding mental health.
Part 1 — Emergency Room
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